Jeez, has it really been almost two months since I posted? This summer has flown by in a haze of work, humidity, and some less than pleasant personal stuff. I've been thinking a lot about what this blog is for and what I want to say with it. It started as a nice way to keep track of all my knitting, but really,
Ravelry has filled that role better than anything. So then I expanded the focus a bit, making this place a record of what's going on in my life - knitting, setting up our house, gardening. A little broad, yes, but still kind of interesting I hope. Now I have to decide how heavily I edit. I know a number of bloggers choose to keep their blogs an exclusively happy place. They admit that their projects don't always come out so successful, their home life is not always to happy-go lucky, but their blog is a simply one version of their life. A life apologetically seen through rose-colored glasses. Is that what I want this place to be? Or do I want all (or at least some) of the gory details to make their way into this space? Is that more accurate, more helpful, more interesting?
Ultimately, I think the a view of some of the good along with some of the bad is the way to go. I may regret this later, but for now, I feel like its almost doing to disservice to only provide a window into the good stuff. So here goes. You know how every other knit blogger (or sewing blogger, or food blogger...) is pregnant? Well I'm not. I had a miscarriage in January and now I'm in the middle of going through another one. The first time it happened to us, we were shocked and devastated. And I was angry. Why don't more people talk about this? Why didn't I know that it's pretty darn common to have a miscarriage? Part of it is that people don't talk about it. The other part is that people (especially pregnant people) don't want to hear about it. And now it's happening all over again. This time I'm not as angry. I'm just going through it. I know we'll come out on the other side and we'll be okay, but it's not easy.
So there it is. I guess I feel like this is one part public service announcement and one part antidote to all the ease and simplicity that you read on other blogs. I hope this doesn't come across as bitter, because I'm really not. I just want to provide the other view. I don't really want to confront people and shout my issues from the rooftops, but I don't want to be completely silent either.
Your regularly scheduled knitting content will resume shortly. There's been lots of knitting around here. It's keeping me sane.